Up until my early 30’s I used to let work demands, fears, and perceived shortcomings unconsciously rule my life (I was letting the materialism and the unnatural ways of the world rule my life. It took me awhile to finally realize I was heading in the wrong direction in life and not only was it affecting me emotionally, it was affecting my health too. I finally realized that a need for change was necessary if I was going to experience health and happiness. I finally came to terms with life and I made a conscious effort to become in tune with myself and I said enough is enough! In June 2011, I experienced what many would refer to as a spiritual awakening and this hallmarked the beginning of a conscious collaboration with the Universe that allowed me to slowly begin to heal and recover from epilepsy, being a stress-fueled worrier, and highly defensive person that I thought I needed to be in order to “succeed”.
Like everyone, I’ve had my fair share of life challenges to overcome. The hand that was dealt with me goes something like this…I grew up with epilepsy, dysfunctional family, low self-esteem and feeling of loss, not knowing where I wanted to go, only feeling the need of wanting something better. Needless to say, I had created a defensive mechanism, which was to protect myself by throwing up walls and being in a constant state of defensiveness.
In the early years of growing up, I found myself habitually drawn to stress, worry, and anxiety and I started to suffer physically with an increased amount of seizures as a result. I often felt insecure, constantly comparing myself to others, and allowing my ego to direct my willpower, motives, and belief system. In addition, I was a follower, not a leader! I had a hard shell and lacked the ability to love even though I craved to be loved. As a form of “protection,” I finally realized that I built a wall around my heart. I felt weighed down and burned out by buried anger, resentment, and worrying about things that didn’t really matter.
Sadly, I made myself sick emotionally, then physically. I was desperate for answers, knowing that there had to be more to life than dealing with one anxiety-ridden mess after another. After working with others and learning how to walk the pathway of forgiveness. A change occurred and I knew I was on the right track.
Several nights later I prayed for my next steps. Answers came to me upon waking the next morning as I met an herbalist who asked me to work with him. I researched and wrote about natural healing and applied a lot of the information I learned to my own life. My epilepsy improved, my self-esteem increased, I felt an abundance of inner strength, and I was receiving messages from my higher self. I realized I was at the onset of a spiritual awakening and experienced heightened abilities such as increased intuition, energy, awareness, patience, strength and improved health. As I began to incorporate the holistic way of life into my life, I realized I was I was encountering a spiritual and physical healing!
This was the beginning of my healing journey. Through meditation, yoga, positive thinking, improved diet and lifestyle I was able to turn my entire life around. I realized there were no quick fixes. Change takes time, however, with determination and the will to succeed, anything is possible. I finally committed myself to the journey of holistic health.
The truth I came to realize is that the trials and tribulations I encountered in life were part of my conscious spiritual path. Living a “holistic” lifestyle is not making detox smoothies and practicing yoga mat every day. It’s not all flowers and the beauty of nature. The conscious holistic path is a day by day commitment to make the best choices for you and your family. A life filled with purity, happiness, peace and good health.
I look back now and can say I’m grateful for growing up with epilepsy, for having a rough childhood, for battling undetermined obstacles that came up from nowhere, the sleepless nights of anxiety and worries. I’m grateful for it all!! That’s not just something I say because it sounds good, I believe it. It’s these things in life that made me the person I am today! Not because I would choose it if given the option again, but because now I live with an open heart filled with love and no walls barricading my heart. I see no faults in others and I feel for others as they face their own daily battles. How can you criticize others imperfections when we ourselves carry just as many imperfections ourselves? Support me on my own path of self-realization and life purpose. I consider myself so blessed to have experienced life’s most valuable lessons and to be able to share what I’ve learned with you in a practical way so you can easily apply what works for YOU into your daily life.
There is a peaceful awareness that exists inside you and when you consciously choose to seek the holistic life that peaceful awareness becomes your guide. As soon as you are willing to let go of the ways of the world and create your own path and purpose, you will experience a life that brings the mind, body and, soul together enabling you to experience health, happiness, and prosperity the way you never felt it before.